In search of my thoughts...

Most people say this, but for me, at this time, and this moment, it is 100% true. I am putting myself on a diet. 

First and foremost, I need to lose the weight. I know this. Part of the problem is I am a big stress eater. Even when I was a kid I would binge eat to make myself feel better, but never knew it was a problem because I was playing year round volleyball, working out 2-3 hours everyday, sometime more (all day tournaments). 

I have tried to lose the weight in the past, but I would always gain. I was doing really well about a year ago until I broke my foot and I never got back into my groove, which has been extremely frustrating. Then in February, I hit my biggest wall, and became so exhausted I haven’t been able to do anything.

So why now? Well first and foremost, I am in the middle of a staycation, and in the transition of a new job and with so many changes going on, this is something I can easily get myself into before the job starts. Second, I am currently in a sleep study, to see how I can improve my sleep. Lastly, I am seeing a nutritionist, who is giving me the tools I need to move forward. David is being super supportive, and with this, everything feels right to move forward.

The diet my nutritionist has me on is pretty simple. I need to reduce the amount of carbs I eat to 50g per meal. What she is trying to do is to not release so much insulin, which is what happens when I eat carbs, and focus more on eating alternative foods so my body grabs the stored fat and reduces my weight. At this point it seems pretty simple. I had a huge breakfast this morning ad my carb intake was 34g. I just need to make the right choices.

In addition to this, my nutritionist is asking me to walk 30 minutes per day. I am hoping I can actually start doing more than that (like running), but keeping that in mind it seems like a minimalistic adjustment, which is something I know I can do. The other thing is this is more of a lifestyle transition rather than a diet. Sure I can have those moments where I have a couple glasses of wine or those cookies once in a while. I just can’t do this all the time, which is fine with me anyways because I am not a fan of drinking all the time or eating sweets.

So here is to hoping. I just hope things will get easier as the week goes on and by the time I start my new job next week, it is a comfortable transition.